"I don't know where the sunbeams end 

And the starlight begins 

It's all a mystery"

 -The Flaming Lips, Flight Test

 (troxel317)

(cherry.bharati) 

(rialynn) 

(hirocun) 

 (omsel)

untitled.

 

(super pipo) 

 (ilze v)

(itsedsy)

 

(terra kate)

(sweethardt) 

(super pipo)

WARNING: Contains sexual content.

(see ming lee)

(second. daughter) 

I swore to abandon discussions of men and relationships. However, sitting here sipping on my soy latte with the beautifully, chill, crisp fall air blowing across me, I am inclined, in this perfect moment, to break my own rules. This is pretty much solely due to Natalie's quest for me to ramble my thoughts for the future book I'm not going to write, but will pretend to write, but really should write.You know, one of those. It will be a best seller, if it were real. Okay, enough.  

We're discussing her recent male failure. An issue we are both too accustomed to. However, we remain optimistic that one day each of us may get the chance to share a bed with a male equivalent to ourselves. For now, we spend our nights as if we are in middle school again, by staying late up, verbally illustrating our dreams and having slumber parties with our best lady friends. Except now, red wine is involved, and our "boy" issues hold vastly more weight than previous years. We huddle together in comfort as the other females of our generation silently shout MARRIAGE BABIES MARRIAGE LOVE COMMITMENT BABIES MARRIAGE!!!! We don't want that. For now, at least, and who is to say ever. 

We are "other," and this male-esq mindset makes other 

woman hate us and men afraid of us. 

Great. Where to go from here... We do not revert and give in, even though sometimes that option seems nice. I find that anyone other then us "un-settlers" have a much easier time finding female companionship. But then again, I would rather remove my freckles from my skin then conform to a lifestyle I do not believe in, especially to make "friends". Life is exciting for us free women. But, like most men, this freedom has a long tail which  trails behind our every encounter of undressing, awkward first dates and flirtatious behavior. 

Behind our backs we keep one hand with our fingers crossed all while the other hand is shoved down our newest victims pants hoping that we either get a good fuck out of this, a lasting relationship or maybe a few free meals or shit... all of the above! OH! the man that makes us melt physically and mentally, now that's who we're holding out for. For those ladies who didn't hold out and settled, they gaze at us with admiring eyes whispering envious, harsh statements underneath their breath. All the while clinging to us as to catch any drip of the sensual, sweet, free, seductive behavior we leave behind. 

We each are imprisoned by different things, but it is a difference in prison statements. They get life without payroll and we're stuck in the can for a couple of years paying for our the minor crime(s). There is hope for us; we aren't dead yet, goddammit!! In fact, we're more alive than ever. And this energy we elude, this challenge we casually graze across men's laps everywhere, keep us as this higher class of women. But up here, drifting above the norm, we're still looking for that one to hit us down and capture us. An owner we have no problem being a slave to because we know that when he slips his hand up our skirt there is more than just friction being exchanges through body parts. There is a deep binding connection as real as the blood that's now pulsating through our body. Fucking right. This is what I'm holding out for. Until I'm struck from my free gliding life, I'll continue joyfully skipping through life picking up men as if we're in a grocery store food shopping.

Oh hey I'm back!

I apologize fellow bloggers.. Things got a little crazy.

Started getting my life together with school.work.gym.life.etc.

Once I finally got my system down, I then got sick....

But have no fear,

this lady's back in action!

And to make up for my absence, I'm giving you this lovely video as a treat.

I've missed you all!

Hope you enjoy.

xoxo.

HOLY BRILLIANTNESS!!!

I am in awe. 

This is so creative and well done!!

Just watch,

I can't properly explain. 

one year and still going strong!!!

I love this from The Love Shop, on Etsy.

Couldn't better describe my feelings towards that topic.

This is kinda odd, 

but recently I celebrated my one year of singlehood!!

(enter huge, shit-eating grin)

It is quite the accomplishment, let me tell you.

I've learned to be completely and totally happy without another! 

Yes, success!!!!

If we were to be having this conversation a couple years ago, 

I can honestly claim I would be very uncertain about living such a solo lifestyle.

However, the single-lady-hood is not as lonely as one would think.

 It's not that I'm afraid to enter the arena

(well, that's kinda a lie... I am slightly petrified)

but I refuse to even get close to getting my heart broken for just some average joe-smoe.

I am a cool lady dammit!

No douche derserves to suck up my time if he doesn't deserve it.

I am so lucky to have so many incredible people around me,

for now, I will continue pouring my love into them.

Those are the ones I live for.

adios.

"The past won't rest until we jump the 

fence and leave it behind"

- Arcade Fire, The Suburban War

.

(rebecca acoustic)

I'm packing up all this bullshit 

I've been dealing with lately and leaving it.

breaking up isn't just for those you date.

anna bond

This is a slightly more serious post.. Sorry if I bore you.

But I have a lot on my mind today, so I am 

going to try and ramble it out in a coherent manner.

I have been going through one of my clean up stages.

By clean up, I mean I reevaluate what is going on. 

This cleaning process can be related to career 

choices, school, futures, relationships, etc, etc. 

Today's "fall cleaning" is of relationships.

I'm finding I have an slightly 'odd' view of relationships. 

Since being in so many negative ones, 

I have learned that it is not simply a significant 

other who can upset you, but anyone around you. 

How people continue in relationships 

in which they feel drained amazes me.

Do not get me wrong.... 

I have been that person far too many times.

However, I am learning that a sure way to stay 

on track with happiness is to rid your life of those

 around you which do nothing but make you smile.

With the ridding of boyfriends, flings, etc, 

I have also started ridding my life of, well, anyone else 

who will create a wave of negativity.

This is one of the best life lessons I've learned :

BREAKING UP IS NOT JUST FOR PEOPLE YOU DATE!

This motto should apply to all who are in your life.

I recently wrote a very honest e-mail to a family member.

Yes, a family member.

Just because we share blood doesn't 

mean that we should be forever be together.

Granted, just like any relationship, I do love this 

person very much and do not wish to see them go.

However, not having them in my life is better than 

the feelings which I feel now with them in it. 

Please understand that I am not talking about ending 

life relationships because your brother picked on you today, 

but you know when something is working and when it is not.

I started this quest with first friendships, and quit trying 

to hang out with those who did not mutually return the love. 

In doing so, I found that I was at great peace, 

and then began to fill the voids with those 

who equally reciprocated the love back. 

After a while, I found I was surrounded my good energy. 
My immediate circle was only with those who deserve it. 

A group of individuals in which truly had my greatest interest at heart.

I don't know if any of that rambling made sense..

But today is a big day, and I felt like needed to be stated.

Like I said, I did a very bold move and wrote something

that could potentially alter the rest of my life.

Either the person is going to stay, or they are going to go.

I am hoping that problems can be worked out

and the relationship can get to where it should be.

That's another thing... Do not be afraid to 

communicate when you are not happy with someone.

I never am one to jump to conclusions and 

make rash decisions without first stating my case. 

I am hoping this person is unaware of how I've 

been feeling and that my honesty will open their eyes 

and all will be well. This is of course, the best possible outcome.

I will try and remain that positive that this is how it will play out.

Nothing is guaranteed in this life and that is a fact

I am coming more and more aware of each day.

I can't keep trying for things that haven't worked.

All I know, is I have this time now 

and I must make the best I can with it.

I hope people can respect my honesty

and avant-garde way of viewing life.

It seems to make perfect, rational sense to me.

  

blah, blah, blah

Looks like someone found a new favor artist... Mariana Abasolo!

I just love everything, it's like contemporary impressionism. 

I think Mr. Van Gogh would be very pleased with your work!

Here are some of my faves and little things 

I wrote about meself with them.

Enjoy your Sunday friends!

Sometimes this is what I feel like when I talk to certain people, 

like we speak our own language.

To everyone else we look foreign and alienated. 

But we know what we mean.
It's beautiful and it is ours.

Oh to be young again. 

I did wish I was a lion when I was younger.

Actually, fuck that. 

I don't ever want to be young again.

But a lion, ah yes.

That I would be at any age. 

Sometimes I wish I could just be a tree.

Please don't cut me down and make me into paper.

I want to grow really, really tall and live with my head in the clouds.

 

dearest future prospects...

here are 10 things you should know,

1.

 

(native vermont)

I kinda have a thing for lumberjacks.
(the muscles, the beards, the plaid shirt.... swoon!)

2.

(anna bond)

And I do love a snazzy dressed fellow.

3.

 

4.

I've had too many of these.. 

(adrianobrodbeck)


 
(iwishiwereinvisible) 
please try and not be another one.

5.

... always.
It has to be an art form, 
because I've perfected it.

6.

 

(anna bond)

(dylon york)

I enjoy a boy who plays music.

(not in a groupie way, I just love music

and it will give us some things to discuss)

7.

(sylvain-emmanuel)
I love me some adventures. 
Come with me on them.  

 

8.

I'm a smart gal,

so talk to me about intellectual things.

(I won't get bored, and I hope 
you can teach me some stuff.)

9.

 (dylon york)

I'm a sucker for a boy with good tattoos. 

10.

 

 

(nobodyknowswhereheis)

Most Importantly!

You have to make me laugh 

and feel like a child again.

xo.

I've got soul, but I'm not a solider

Still love The Killers first album, Hot Fuss.

I remember when it came out when; I was in high school.

I rushed over to the nearest music store and purchased it.

It was one of those albums I listened to on repeat, from start to finish.

I was in awe. 

(true story)

It is one of those albums that have stuck with me throughout the years.

Do you have any of those? 

It was a huge defining moment in my life,

and I'm glad that as I've aged it has grown with me.

 I create a lot of art work that is inspired by music.

Whether it be lyrics that pierce right through me, or the sound and melody, etc.

Music equally is as much a part of my life as art is.

Without it, I am certain I wouldn't be the same person.

It is my therapy. 

With that being said, I will always appreciate others being inspired by music.

Especially music that I also adore.

These photographs are by AdrianOBrodbeck

They are fantastic! 

All These Things I've Done is one of those songs that keeps me going. 

Literally, every sentence speaks to me. 

Happy Friday :) 

this is for you music lovers

So Beck (who is my opinion is a musical genius) has a 
little gem hidden amongst his website; The Record Club. 
Here you can find various musicians who record an album in a day. 
Instead of the usual round of re-takes, Beck chooses to display the beauty 
of what takes place while recording an album. 
It is raw, real and absolutely beautiful. 
In a world where you find nothing 
but this looming unachievable demand of perfection, 
I find pieces of work, like this refreshing, to say the least. 

"Record Club is an informal meeting of various musicians to record an album in a day. The album chosen to be reinterpreted is used as a framework. Nothing is rehearsed or arranged ahead of time. A track is put up here once a week. The songs are rough renditions, often first takes that document what happened over the course of a day as opposed to a polished rendering. There is no intention to 'add to' the original work or attempt to recreate the power of the original recording. Only to play music and document what happens."

This video is an INXS cover, I Need You Tonight. 
Honestly, not sure of all the members playing (besides Beck), 
but I do know that the girl is Annie Clark of St. Vincent (a wonderful band). She is super talented and also has spent time living in both Dallas and Boston. 
She was part of the tour bands of the Polyphonic Spree and Sufjan Stevens.

newest obsession.

I know I said I loved you but I'm thinking I was wrong,
I'm the first to admit that I'm still pretty young,
and I never meant to hurt you when I wrote you ten love songs.
but a guy that I could never get 'cause his girlfriend was pretty fit
and everyone who knew her loved her so.
and I made you leave her for me and now I'm feeling pretty mean,
but my mind has fucked me over more times than any man could ever know.

Maybe I should give up, give in,
give up trying to be thin,
give up and turn into my mother,
god knows I love her.

and I'm sorry to which ever man should meet my sorry state,
watch my steady lonesome gait and beware.
I would never love a man 'cause love and pain go hand in hand
and I can't do it again.

So we stayed up late one night to try and get our problems right,
but I couldn't get into his head just what was going through my mind,
and I think he knew where I was going
he put Ryan Adams on
I think he thinks it makes me weak
it only ever makes me strong.
I've got this friend who sounds just like him,
now he's the man I'd leave you for, the man that I just adore like you.
The same man, he turns to me he said I've got to tell you how i feel,

if god could make the perfect girl for me it would be you
and my god told me not tell about how much do you love your fella?"
I don't know more everyday
not in this new romantic way.

I'll always be your first love, you'll always be my first love.

And I'm sorry to which ever man should meet my sorry state
watch my steady lonesome gait and beware,
I will never love a man 'cause I could never hurt a man in this way.
I will never love a man cause I could never hurt a man, not in this new romantic way.

 

truth.

Love, love this blog. 

Here is today's post. 

Straight up truth.

today, I feel like ....

(images from bogo)